let me breathe again.

fuck march.

puke puke puke puuuuuke puke.
i have an empty head.

what else can there be?

we're in the middle of summer land
she said and the sun is shining strong
take my hand he said and the wind was blowing and
her hair whipped all around, sticking to her cheeks, damp and salty from the sea
we are alone she said and
dont touch me don't hurt me she said, she wrote
and soon i'll wake up she told him and
you are just a dream,
she typed, eyes closed and filled with regret

the best things in life are things we have imagined, she wrote
fingers flying and breathing shallow
we are here together he whispered,
as the gulls flew overhead and the sand stung hot between her toes and the sun,
he promised her,
will bring us back to life again and we will be lively creatures, blood pumping and eyes bright and breath warm and sweet in our throats.
please he said,
just for a moment let yourself go and be here with me because the wintertime is just around the corner,
and when it finds us you will not believe that life could ever be this way again.
but she said,
this is just a dream
this life is just a dream she screamed this love is just a drug this high is just a lie this heartbeat is just,

i can't feel anything anymore.